Album art

I HAVE to start figuring out what I want to do for the cover because I might possibly have to go home so I have to hustle. You see, I am subletting my apartment back home to someone I THOUGHT I knew but apparently I was totally wrong. It's now the 13th of January and the rent has not been paid. I have no idea what to do but I know I can't afford to pay for my place in Ottawa AND my place in NYC so I am totally screwed.  I either have to pray to the sky that my rent gets paid in Ottawa or I am going to have to temporarily come home and get someone else to take over the apartment. Not sure what I am going to do at this point...I spent 10 hours on the phone this morning in tears and I of all things I'm not letting THIS defeat me. I'm going to struggle a HELL of a lot in my future with this crazy career so I'm going to have to learn to keep myself together. I'm not even going to discuss it any further. I will figure it out... I HAVE to figure it out!

I scored about 200 jewel CD cases today off of freecycle.com... It's the coolest website. You basically just go online to this website, choose your city and discover a world of people who are either posting things to give away or posting things they need. It's all free too. People have junk every single day that they need to get rid of and most often this junk is another persons treasure, so why toss it if someone is willing to take it? I didn't want to get cd's made in plastic for various reasons... primarily environmental. By picking up these empty CD cases I am basically recycling other peoples damage. This saves me money and gives me a home for my CD's. I just gotta get really creative with my cover. STICK MEN? That's been my latest creative idea... or not creative. I really don't know. I am plagued by this scary rent situation. I can't think about anything except when the next greyhound is parting to Canada.  

I guess in this world the only person you can trust is yourself...and let's be honest... there are times we even make decisions against our OWN moral fiber when put in the right situation.

I'm not sure how I would deal with having to come home. I literally just got here and happen to LOVE my apartment and my neighborhood and I really don't think i'll be able to find anything like this again should I be cornered into giving it up!

I am in 'The Bean' again, I love this coffee shop. I actually started laughing in my head the other day because I was babysitting Huck for the day and I decided to take him to starbucks and of course we were making so much noise an taking up so much space with his stroller....so this lady came in a squeezed beside us and whipped out her laptop and i couldnt help but be curious what she could possible be writing about and just like me she was writing some sort of blog. Just as i peeked at her page she was writing about how Huck was screaming behind her... HAHAHA. I kinda thought her to be nuts then realized I do the exact same thing. haha... I love spying on people. it's just so candid and thats when you discover the most about human beings. I believe we all think feel and do the same things, what separates us is what we choose to reveal about ourselves. Our confidence, our preferences and our perspectives are different on the outside but at the end of the day we are all cut from the same cloth and have the same makings of a human being. 

I guess this post as no meaning other than to say I wish my rent would be paid and I need a cool idea for an album cover. 

Oh...and I am going to do vocals tonight in Williamsburg and if I don't make it back alive I want to donate my body to a medical research facility and I want to donate my eyes to a blind person. I also want someone to be in charge of hiring Will Pharrell to sing "dust in the wind" at my funeral. If you can't afford to hire Will I'm sure Tom Green will do it at a low price. 

oh and please tell my Mom it honestly was not me who drank all the Baileys last christmas... that's been hovering over me since the accusation.

thanks eh!

Jena