coast in the east coast?

9 garbage bags full of laundry and STILL not done. Exterminators are coming on Wednesday to wipe this place clean and to prepare for that ive been instructed to clean every piece of clothing I own PLUS all my linens. It's a nightmare. I also have to clear out all the kitchen cupboards, book shelves etc... you'd think we were moving again! I wouldn't even mind moving again... I'm not sure this apartment is on my side...

speaking of moving again... these last two days I can't stop mulling over whether or not its a good idea to move out east with AJ. There really isnt anything holding me back here in Toronto accept this apartment and the fact that I really love living with Amber, but I still can't decide if I want to pack up my life ONCE again. This might be a great chance for me to take a break from life and figure out what I really want. Out east I can learn piano, take time to write music, think about my future and enjoy the ocean.  I wouldnt have to pay rent and I could get a job doing whatever the hell I please... it could be nice. Then again, do I really want to move in and make that type of leap with AJ after only 6 months of dating? Would I regret it? Would I miss the hustle and bustle of Toronto? Will I feel set back from ever evolving in the music scene in this city? I just dont knowwwwww.... :( Plus I don't want to leave Amber stranded... we JUST moved into this apartment. I can't even believe i'm considering this but I AM!

It has not even yet been CONFIRMED that AJ is going so I shouldn't even be thinking about it this hard... but I like being prepared mentally... its the only way to preserve my sanity.

Decisions, Decisions...

Now I'm off to go hang out for another 4 hours in the Laundry room. I felt bad yesterday because AJ and I walked in and this dear eldery man was walking out. I think he just stopped in to say hi to his friend but he had set his little bag of groceries down. When he walked out he forgot the bag and we didnt notice in time to tell him. Poor man was likely too old to remember so it sat untouched. Ice cream, gatorade, chocolate bar, lettuce, cigarettes... (circle the one thing that does not belong. haha...) is that what i'm going to get to eat when i'm 80  years old? Lots to look forward to! Poor man, I wish I knew where he lived... I would have taken it to him. Alas, it will remain a mystery as to whether or not he ever went back for it. 

On a funny note. AJ tried to lighten up the situation by putting a big sign on the living room wall saying BED BUG BONANZA 2010! I forgot it was there when the building manager came in to inspect. hahahahaha She must think we're freaks... then again... we sort of are!

-2 degrees in March... nice

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sleep deprivation or hangover?

the last few nights I have been reduced to sleeping on my air mattress instead of my once comfortable bed as a consequence of the creepy crawlers that may or may not have infiltrated it. AJ and I have been waking up with these strange mosquito bite like marks on our arms and hands which not only makes me never want to go near my bed again but also makes me quite curious about the building I live in. I can't actually SEE any physical bugs in my bed which is driving me absolutely mad! It just does not make any sense. I just called the management office and she was pretty unsympathetic about the situation. she told me if I had bed bugs I would be able to see them and if I can't see them then I don't have them. Waking up with bites from bugs I don't have in my bed means something supernatural is happening to me and my boyfriend... let's call national geographic! 

I keep a very clean apartment so if there is a flea or bed bug issue then I have to blame this building. Not to mention the neighborhood. Gross! I am NOT a fan of the 12 square blocks that surround my building. What a mistake!

With this existing "plague" that seems to have stricken me I can't say i've had a decent nights sleep in well over two weeks. I had a massive outing on Friday with the girls at work. We managed to convince the GM to let us bring cocktailers in from other Kegs around the city to work our shifts so all the lounge girls could have it off. We rented a limo, went bar hopping, had dinner etc... it was an over all fun night but left me with even LESS sleep to run on... Whats funny is I felt SO hang over on Saturday but could not sleep in my bed... 3 am i finally got to sleep on my shoddy air mattress and woke up Sunday completely sleep deprived. I don;t think there is  much of a difference between NO SLEEP and a nasty HANGOVER. The saaaame thing if you ask me!

Apart from that my boyfriend is 95% sure he is leaving the province and moving to Halifax for 5 months VERY soon to film his show. He has no choice but to go.  I am not sure how to deal with this news. It's horrible! I'm pretty needy and the thought of 5 days kills me. He has invited me to go with him for 5 months and live rent free in his hotel but I cannot imagine myself packing up my life again. I have been though this SO many times in the last 4 years.  I also have nothing in Halifax. The only reason it sounds great to me is that I love the ocean, I wouldnt have to work as often and I could spend more time learning to play the piano so I can come home to Toronto and plays shows without having to rely on ANYONE but myself. It sounds good in writing. MANNNNN oh MAN... my life is like a rotten box of chocolates. hahaha or those really shitty cherry filled ones. I always hated grabbing the wrong chocolate out of the box at christmas time thinking it would be caramel centered or hazelnut creamed only to take a huge bite of CHERRY or COCONUT! grosssss!

it's sunny outside today and -1 so i'm going to stop sobbing! 

go team Canada!