sunday fun day

i am a terrible grocery shopper. I think a good grocery shopper actually premeditates what they want before their shopping trip in order to save on not only time but the pain and agony of contemplation. Sharp cheddar or mild cheddar? Whole wheat or honey oat? Cheerios or corn flakes? All these questions are normal to have whilst shopping but I think knowing the answer BEFORE embarking saves from that inevitable 5 minute inner dialogue one will have while standing before a vibrant wall of cereal boxes. Maybe it's just that I can never decide exactly what the BEST choice is for me. I hate when I get home and regret 85% of my purchases. I don't even like sharp cheddar, but the packaging wreaked fog over my common sense. I am now trying to play around with my mental and physical relationship to sharp cheddar hoping mind really is over matter. I love grocery shopping late at night. I like doing things during irregular hours. I enjoy watching the different people come in and out, most with a plan, in and out... others stopping to pick up and examine everything on the shelf. I love the people who stand and read the gossip magazines. they get their fill of the 'high life' and feel a little better when they read about celebs at their all time lows. "Ah, YES...Jessica Simpson has a little weight issue, now I don't feel so bad for this ice cream that is currently melting in my bag". Everyone loves to see the people at the top topple over.  I think those people really aren't at the top anyways. What is the top really? Who makes that call? Does the top symbolize the summit of sheer contentment? If not, then why does everyone feel like they have to be there? Let me decide what the top is in my OWN life thanks. As far as I am concerned I AM at the top!!! I of course do not believe a word I am saying here but it would be so nice if for just one day I could have the sort of optimism. "king of the hill, top of the heap"

I was watching two mexican guys play a few tunes on the 4 train today and I started wondering where they learnt to play like that. One was on an organ and the other was playing guitar and they were really good. Where do they convene when it's time to have practice and more importantly what resources are they using to teach themselves these skills? They are without question talented people and I do not think there is enough credit given where credit is deserved. They probably do not make more than 5 or 10 dollars an hour (generously speaking). I can't even fantasize about what it would be like to stand before a somber group of people riding the train to work and request that they give you money. It's quite disparaging. Never the less these people might actually love what they are doing which is a far cry from most employees of midtown new york. 

St.Patricks Day at work was absolutely insane. The OverLook has been open for 5 years and I was informed yesterday that this St.Pat's day was the highest grossing sales in the history of the restaurant. I can believe it too. I has to weave through 75 people every time I wanted to serve one of my tables. Firemen and girls who wanted attention from the firemen just littered the main floor. I ended up giving in to my inner irish man and I started sharing some drinks with some of my tables. I ended up drinking more than my body could handle at the time and sure enough by 12:30 I was kicked out. HAHA. Kicked out of my own restaurant. Luckily I work for some pretty cool people who only laughed at me for it and gave me the "employee of the month" title as a result. It's that kind of mentality that motivates me to do my job better :)

My album is officially for sale on itunes which excites me in the midst of all this dormancy! 6.99 and 7 songs will fall into your itunes gracefully. DO IT! I am writing more and more as I go but considering I work 60 + hours in 5 days its a little difficult to get it all done. I had a great time on the weekend with Giles. Went out sat.. ended up at Crocodile lounge at 2:00 a.m where they dish out free pizza with every beer. I'm talking personal pan pizza too... not just some lousy slice. GOOD pizza too. It was a friggen dream. I also continued my sunday funday tradition of going to Pianos down in the lower east side. I love it in there. Theres a lounge a bar and a room that showcases stand up comedy and various bands. its my new fave place. We also had a chance to catch lunch on a patio at Bua. A really cool bar/resturant right in my village. Sundays are my fave day of the week. It's official!

I don't want to get boring but let me just say I am glad I am keeping busy with work because I get increasingly lonely. Bearing in mind that every time my loneliness heightens so concurrently does my excitement for this city. that is what makes me Libra. BALANCE!

wine tasting

exhibit visiting

beer drinking

block wandering

book reading

music writing

people watching

mind boggling

life contemplating

self discovering

network building

skin thickening

this is what I do it all for....