kings of Leon

Here are some pics from Kings of Leon at Madison Square Garden. 

I met some really great australian girls who won a sony contest and got a 4 days 3 night trip to New York. They were obviously in good spirits... look at my little hairs standing up... thats what lead singer does to me... haha... 

zesty mart

So below I posted a picture of the view from my apartment. You can't see it in the picture but just to the right there is the Williamsburg bridge which looks beautiful lit up a night. I also took some close up pictures of the 1969 "IT" print that is on my bedroom wall. :)

where have I been? I've been here. I have just not been in the blogging state of mind. I don't know what state my mind HAS been in but I do know that state has changed with various contributing factors including red wine and shots of Patrone. The problem with working in two different restaurant/bars is that the alcohol comes free and by the barrel. 

Last Friday I partied till 7:30 in the morning. This Thursday 6:30 in the morning. I can't keep up this lifestyle or i'll be out before i ever make it in. 

I plan to catch up on sleep. I really do.

The album is done. Will be up on itunes soon. The website is constantly being improved and the compost still exists in my kitchen.

i also came home wasted and ambitious friday morning and decided it would be clever to drag  box of used books from the hallway into my room. someone left them there for the taking the day before and i had a secret urge to claim them. I couldnt do it sober so when i came home drunk it was a no brainer. My roommate woke up and came out of her room in sheer confusion. I was so drunk I just looked at her and side hi in a really slurry high pitched voice. I was trying to use her bike to keep the door open so i could drag the books in but that was not working well so she obviously woke up. She thinks im nuts. That is for certain. 

did some private room karaoke, went to see two lovers at an indie movie theatre in the village ( my cell phone went off at the most intimate moment in the film...EMBARRASSING) and I played some pin ball at hi-fi... not to mention the 49057205 hours of work per week. I really have not been up to anything remarkable. I will post when that day comes... as for right now I am just not in the mood...

I miss my friends a lot

I miss my balcony

I miss mother nature

I DON'T miss Zesty mart

and most of all I miss my sanity... but i've been missing that for years.

"all ashore who goes to shore!"

Jena

run away

oh to be young again. As I walked down home stretch (the last block where my apartment becomes visible in the distance) I saw these two young boys chortling behind their hands and looking at one another as though they just discovered neverland. They closed the door carefully behind them and for a brief moment I felt the wave they were on...I tapped into the rush of being out in the free world, the unknown. I wish I could have told them all my 22 years of wisdom before they set sail down the wave of Loisaida but I think they will soon discover that there really is no place like home and when they do they will turn around. I remember sneaking out of the house as a kid almost just for the satisfaction of knowing that I could. I never liked the feeling of not being able to make my own decisions. Maybe that is part of the reason I packed my bags and moved to one of the dirtiest, loneliest and most impenetrable cities in the world; simply because I wanted to know I could! 

I am extremely into Richard Linklater right now and I can't stop watching "The waking life". Its the finest philosophy out there. It's definitely not dry and the cinematography is an art in itself. I definitely think it's worth the viewing for anyone interested in the human condition.  It's heavy... but so is the burden of the unexamined life. You choose!

As of me and my life. I have been in this weird state over the last 2 weeks. I am not sure if its lack of sleep or not but I am in a constant daze. Almost outside of myself. I feel like I am just hacking away at the days... in hopes that one day my carvings will turn into a great monument!

I am working 2 jobs and one requires me to work doubles so there are days I either go from 1 job to the other or I work 12-14 hours in one shift and after awhile that begins to take a toll. 

Days are long, nights are lonely, future is ambiguous... sometimes I think I may have taken a leave from my senses... but I have no regrets. it's all for the music!

What amazes me is the way the past was so relevant and weighty when it was the present, but as soon as it became the past it became something to laugh at. Does that make sense? It's as though I spent all my time worrying about never getting those things that I want but in retrospect I had everything I needed. I have to remember that for today and tomorrow and the rest of my life. Sometimes the here and now is the pinnacle of happiness but never gets acknowledged that way because the fear of the future trumps it. i dont know. what do i know?

Garbage picker

This is a news paper from 1969. Why don't our prints still look as visually appealing? Maybe they had less news back then...

This is a melange of various CD covers on my wall. 

So I have been acquiring random bedroom decorations and furniture. I now have a radio, table and floor lamp. None of which cost me a single penny. I found the table in my hallway. People tend to put their garbage in the hall free for the taking. I walked past the pile of christian books and bibles but as soon as I saw this hardly used table I knew it had to be mine. I initially left it there because there was someone in the hall and I felt embarrassed but I gave it a minute or two and shot back down the elevator to claim my prize. It fits perfectly in my room and makes for a great computer station. My CD player rocks too. This lifestyle is really teaching my to appreciate all the things that were so readily at my disposal before. I really had more than I needed. Now something as simple as a free table gets me excited!

as for what ive been up to... hmm..

bought some party provisions and had giles over saturday night. we went to a club in the meatpacking district called tenjune. it was fun but a little too posh for the mood we were in. I totally respect a good pub or dive. The people are just much more interesting and down to earth. We waited in line to get into this busy diner at 4:30 in the morning and once we got out table we waited another 15 mins till we decided fuck it...lets go get a 2 dollar slice of pizza. I only got home at 5 am and woke up to my roomie cleaning the apartment at 9:30 a.m. I was in a terrible mood all day so I kept to myself. I went to a cool coffee shop on Bowery and just enjoyed the 14 degrees weather. I then came home and worked on some music. tired to sleep but the peircing paid of my wisdom tooth coming in wouldnt allow it.

I now have to go start a new job tonight at 5:30. I HATE starting new jobs but I LOVE working so this way I will have two jobs and I will be too busy to complain :)

My myspace page is being updated daily and I think things will be wrapped up soon with the album. EXCITING! 

I am going to go chug some grape to get my all riled up for tonight's debut.

economy woes

''Time for the cobras to hiss on the uppermost levels, for the nettle to jostle the patios and roof-gardens, 'for the Market to crash in a pyramid of moss, time for the jungle lianas that follow the rifles soon, soon enough, ever so soon. Woe to you, Wall Street!''- Lorca- "Dance of Death.
hehe. Lorca was a famous poet who moved from Madrid to New York City and experienced the stock market crash of 1929.

I wonder what poet is going to rear his lyrical head and illustrate through prose the consequential ruination of this twenty-first-century plight? Maybe Andy Warhol will conjure an exhibition of some sort to regurgitate the current economic decline with wit and taste? After all, we only have ourselves to blame so why not laugh in the face of our greed or our ignorance... dependent on which side of the spectrum we are on. Any wealthy American should concede to money-grubbing while I think most middle or lower class Americans are just plain ignorant. There is always a grey area and never a sure answer but as I rifle through the population the lack of employment and waning economy becomes more tangible and I am beginning to wonder who is REALLY responsible?

Mexican cream

whats cool about today....right now... is that I am sitting OUTSIDE at a coffee shop. At a cute little table in the sun, winter jacket at home. It's beautiful outside. I feel like I have to take advantage of this while it is here. On the down side it smells like the city is one giant easy bake oven cooking up a melange of dog shit, garbage and underground sewage. I just try not to breathe. Like most days of my life.

You know, lately ive been thinking a lot about a lot... and a lot is not fun to think about because it gets to be a lot. A lot of people would agree. A lot of the time, a lot should just be ignored and a little should be embraced. The other night it was our 3 year anniversary at work. A bunch of us were done our shifts so we hung out by the bar and drank. Even the managers were doing shots with us! I ended up getting way more drunk than expected and loved every minute of it. Myself and about 5 other girls then went down to the East Village to hit up a late night diner and I unfortunately ate the grossest nachos known to man. I was so drunk I was dipping my nachos in mexican cream instead of sour cream. hahaha. At one point i was dipping my nacho into NOTHING ... the TABLE TOP. One of the girls noticed and immediately called me out leaving me with no excuse but to just admit my extreme level of intoxication. 

it was a great night!

then LAST night at work was the super bowl and the same sort of thing went down minus majority of the staff. Rather is was myself, a few girls i work with, one of the girls' parents and a bunch of British people on their last day of vacay. After the steelers took home the win the place cleared out we drank and danced in the restaurant to a slew of classic oldies. It was such a good time We all lined up and did the can can to NEW York NEW YORK. And that my friends classifies as the little that goes unnoticed in the middle of a lot. I am lucky to have met and made some great friends at my new job and I am looking forward to getting to know them all more.

We actually have our holiday staff party tonight. I'm sure its going to be a mess of a time. I unfortunaely lost my keys last night and stood out front of my apartment ringing the buzzer for 30 minutes at 2:30 in the morning. I rang every single apartment in a drunken rage till someone finally buzzed me in the building. I then marched up 6 flights and knocked incessantly on my door to no avail. I accepted defeat and called jacquie who i work with and happens to live 2 blocks away. Jacquie and I got well acquainted after we had dinner and drinks friday night and by 10 oclock she was too drunk to stand so we got in a cab and went home. I would have liked to stay out but i am a good friend. Anyways, so jacquie lives 2 blocks away and I ended up just sleeping at her house. We stayed up wailing Sia and eventually fell asleep listening to spoon. I got a mere 3 hours of sleep as I had to get up at 8 in the morning and walk across town to meet Miranda and get new keys made. I have yet to go back to sleep and DO plan on attending holiday party. Lets see how that goes...

Merry Warm Day in February everyone :)